my fate..my life..been like tis for going to 19 years..
trying to work hard to get wat i wan but i noe there will not be any result shown
wants to lead a normal life but always couldnt make it..
wan to live on but does not hav motivation and directions to follow
all tis can lead mi to commit suicide soon..but i do not wan to..
yes i admit life sux..but i wish to see whether there is ANY beautiful things tat is worth for mi to discover and motivation for mi to live on..haiz..

i think i shall isolate myself and leave everything outside..
and not care about the outside world and hide in my shell if i have 1
have a hearts tat is as hard as steel so that i wont getting emotional easily
a mind tat is strong tat can stop being an idiot and care so much
a facial expression tat no 1 could tell wat emotion i having now.
juz like a dead man...need not care the outside world
and leave tis misery world..where its about money and power...